Lottie went home yesterday! She stayed an extra day which was good! I know I didnt see her on Friday or Saturday, but I was too depressed, and being around her brings out feelings Id rather not have! As much as I love her, being near her brings that all out, and when I know I cant have her just hurts beyond words. She phoned me Sunday morning and told me she was still in Oxford, So I went to meet her, and take her to the train station. We hugged as usual but I swear theres something there. She says she loves me, but why doesnt she do anything about it? It really hurts and confuses me! I dont know how to speak to her about it either! Its creating vibes between us, and I dont want us to fall out because of this! I know theres the distance thing, I can see that, and I know what a pain it can be, but isnt it worth a try? Just to see if it would work? Its not like we never see or speak to each other... Even if it doesnt work, at least we gave it a try, and we could still be friends after, Nothing is going to stop me loving her, even if it doesnt work out! DAMN MY LIFE!
College is going ok, a lil boring as usual! but Im waiting for it to pick up! Hopefully it will soon! everything else is, well, shit! Im just fed up with everything! life, death, family, friends, college....
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