Since I wrote to my MP, I've heard back from the hospital and the Complaints Manager! My Operation has been set for 5th MArch which is great news! I'm a little bit nervous about it, but Im glad I've finally got a date! Now I just need to wait the 5 weeks, and pray they find something. Im really starting to miss work, and the money! Ive asl seen my GP and Ive been put onto stronger anti-depressants. Been taking them for 4 days now, and I seem to be in a better mood than usual, although I still have my down sides. Its managable down though, so thats good! I've also been to the eye hospital, after the diabetic team thought my eyes were really bad and I needed surgery, but the eye hospital doc sai they were over exagirating and my eyes are fine for now!
Last night I went to an amazing gig! Crysis did an excellent set as well as seeing Ways Across. Finally got my Crysis tshirt as well! I went with Megan, and Ive been spending alot more time with her. Went to her open mic night last tuesday which was fun. I dont know, things between us seem a bit off, Im not sure if its just me over thinking things, but it seems like shes trying to flirt with me... We've had this discussion before and we both said it wouldnt work if we got back together. Despite my feelings for her, Im not sure if it would work or not :s I'm not gonna do anything, just wait and see how things go!
I've also been speaking to Keri (Gemma's sister) alot. Yeah, I have a crush on her, but Im not sure how she feels about me, so will have to find out somehow. Anyway, Im seeing her on the 11th at Gemma's house party as Gemma and Mikey hae now, finally, got their own place! I spent a week and a half with them, helping them move and decorate! Its a really nice 2 bedroom appartment in Long Wittenham. Its right between Didcot and Abingdon, 3 miles to either. A really small, quiet village with no shops etc but its great out there!
Hmm... Other news? Demi and Flatz have broken up, and its Demi's birthday soon, so that should be fun. Wig seems to be sleeping alot recently, Im not sure if its because of her age, or what, but i dont think its good, and she wont see a doctor either :s Well thats all from my boring life! Post again some time soon!
Peace x
And todays tunage is...... Ways Across - Believe
Sunday, 29 January 2012
Tuesday, 3 January 2012
A new year, same old shit
I was thinking, wouldnt it be nice to have some of my old things back... nothing material, just emotions, feelings, friends, etc. I find myself reminising more and more about what I used to have and everything Ive lost, through my own mistakes or other reasons. I dont know what I'm doing any more. I've lost all reason for being, with no energy or motivation in my life. Christmas came and went, and although it was slightly better than previous years, it was still the same old shit that I hate. At least this year I didnt get any unwanted presents. New years eve went ok as well, went to Pizza hut with everyone, were 13 of us and it was good fun, then in the Wheatsheaf with a smaller group of friends, and it all went ok, a few things got me down, but again, thats just my depression kicking in to do with things I cant control and they shouldnt bother me but they do.
In other, happier news, Star Wars: The Old Republic came out 20th December and Ive been playing that, its been amazing and Im not quite sure if I prefer it over WoW but its a nice change. You have lightsabers, need I really say more?
Medically speaking, Ive been getting worse, I wrote to my MP yesterday to see if he can help me get my operation. He helped back last April when I couldnt get an appointment, so hopefully he will help again. Like I said, my depression is also really bad, but the stomach problem doesnt help, and Ive stopped testing my blood sugars again and im not ontop of my diabetes, but thats partly due to my depression and that I really dont give a fuck any more. If the NHS doesnt care that I could possibly have a life threatening condition, why should I? Its not like I've got much to live for anyway. Constantly in pain, either not sleeping, or when I do, its for 15hours at a time... bleh!
As for girlfriends, or lack thereof, yeah it pisses me off, but with being ill, Im not exactly in a fit state to go out and socialize and find one. I end up sitting at home all the time watching girls I fancy fall in love with other people, or flirt with others, not realizing that I actually fancy them. oh well... life goes on, unfortunitly.
gonna go and umm... do something, not sure what, but something...
peace x
In other, happier news, Star Wars: The Old Republic came out 20th December and Ive been playing that, its been amazing and Im not quite sure if I prefer it over WoW but its a nice change. You have lightsabers, need I really say more?
Medically speaking, Ive been getting worse, I wrote to my MP yesterday to see if he can help me get my operation. He helped back last April when I couldnt get an appointment, so hopefully he will help again. Like I said, my depression is also really bad, but the stomach problem doesnt help, and Ive stopped testing my blood sugars again and im not ontop of my diabetes, but thats partly due to my depression and that I really dont give a fuck any more. If the NHS doesnt care that I could possibly have a life threatening condition, why should I? Its not like I've got much to live for anyway. Constantly in pain, either not sleeping, or when I do, its for 15hours at a time... bleh!
As for girlfriends, or lack thereof, yeah it pisses me off, but with being ill, Im not exactly in a fit state to go out and socialize and find one. I end up sitting at home all the time watching girls I fancy fall in love with other people, or flirt with others, not realizing that I actually fancy them. oh well... life goes on, unfortunitly.
gonna go and umm... do something, not sure what, but something...
peace x
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