Lottie came to Oxford today! Shes going to a funeral tomorrow with Bev and she is staying in Oxford til Saturday! Ive spent all of today with her! God I love her! Why does it have to be so complicated! Why cant we just go out with each other? Zack or Tylah have told Lewis bout how I wanna go out with Lottie and lewis has started spreading it around, and frazer found out and told me! Ive had to deny any of it cos Lottie has been there, but she knows how I feel bout her. I think she feels the same but she cantmake up her mind. and I can see her side of it, with dating each other it could seriously ruin our friendship and that means the world to both of us! Im just confused and dont know what to do!
I left her at Bevs tonight, about an hour ago, and we were at the door and hugged then were both just standing there, hugging looking into each others eyes, and i could see it in her eyes. or at least i think i did, that she loves me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Am I getting carried away with myself? or could we make this work? Im lost for words now! I havent got a clue about what to do! I was planning on asking her out while she was in oxford, but with lewis opening his big gob, I dont think i can do it now.
God its hard to explain, but i swear she has feelings for me, its the way she speaks to me, and looks at me, and the subtle hints that im getting. Not sure if shes sending out the hints on purpose, or if its her subconcous, butI LOVE HER!
Anyway, college is going ok, Im actually starting to learn things now! MAde quite a few friends on my course,but Im still not speaking to any of my old friends like kelly, chrystal and that lot! Also, I still havent got a job yet! stil looking, but Ive picked up an application for staples, the stationarystore on park end street, and that looks like a decent job, but i want to do warehouse or merchandizing.. I will see what the have got! The student union has also got their bar licence by the looks of it so im gonna pop in on monday and see about a job there! if theyt have a place!
Good night ppl! gonna go to bed now and dream of lottie! hehe!
And todays tunage is...... Staind - So far away
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