a happy depression?

Ok, so Im happy! spent both friday and saturday with Elly, and it was great! really really great, and I was so fucking happy, But today, its like... i dont know, I feel really down and depressed...

Something is bothering Elly and she wont tell me what it is, which is annoying, and its just small things really that are getting me down. Not knowing if i have a job at the end of the month doesnt help. But im really worried about what Elly is thinking... everyone says she loves me.. and she actually typed "I love you" the other night... and in english too... but then... in town, she refuses to kiss me, and she neverchats to me, and I very rarely get to see her any more. It really hurts, and i wish there wasnt such a big age gap so she could tell her mom, and i could go round hers more often. But then... she can always come round mine, but the 3 times i've offered shes had excuses not to come. Im not sayingthey are excuses, cos they could just well be genuine reasons, but still...

I just dont know what to think at the moment... my head is banging this way and that....