the "in depth" version

ok, so Im being made to write an "in depth" version, just so the love of my life has something to read! hehe... Here you go Georgie!

Lets start on the main points from the last post!

As of Sunday 16th December 2008 me and Georgie are back together. It was a tough break, as you can tell from my depression stricken posts over the last week or so, but Im even happier then when we we orignally together, which is immense! Her family love me, and my nan seems to accept her, which is weird. But anyway, Her mom is actually letting her stay at mine thursday night, so YAY! I cant wait! So heres me, the happiest guy in the world, blazing my tunes (currently: Wounds - InMe) while sipping on my Diet coke, too happy to sleep at 3:20am.

Next point was that me and Georgie are still friends with JJ, which is good, just because you break up with someone, it shouldnt mean you should stop speaking to them. Yes I know i disappear for a few weeks and dont speak to my ex's after we spilt up, but after the wounds heal I will still be their friends. Im not sure what Georgie thinks about me and Megan still being close friends, Its been quite awkward, especially on halloween. But they both seemed to find a safe ground today when i had them both at my pub. I really should introduce Laura to Georgie, not sure what Laura would say about that, but I havent spoken, let alone seen laura in quite a while. We get on well, given whats happened between us, but she seems to be distancing herself from me.

Point three was Scotts 21st Birthday last tuesday. I went with Demi and had a really great time, despite the lack of money! Maybe it was the fact that we were all in the gloc that made up for it? Me and Demi had left by 9pm, and scott was on his way to getting legless. Lee was there as well, and from what ive heard I dont think scott could walk home! well, anyway, Congrats Scott!

Now for the main point! I know one of my "change my life" promises a few years ago was no more slot machines... well... I went to work last monday, had a fiver on me! Decided to put a quid in the new machine, and i won about £15, so i put a few more quid in... and won again and again and again. At the end of the night I had £48 in my pocket. Same thing happened today, got to work and put £2 in and came away with £20. Im not saying Im addicted like i used to be, and I cant do what i used to do, for financal reasons. I just dont make the few grand a month that i used to do! But all my promises seem to be slipping!

JAMES YOU IDIOT! lets recap what those were...

1. no suicide attempts...
2. no more gambling on the fruit machines
3. no more heavy drinking
4. no more drugs

ok, so i technically havent broken promise 1 but ive been really close to it, and 3 and 4 havent really happened, yeah Ive taken a few tokes, like once every year, and Ive been out and drunk til i was out of it, but it happens like once a year. So its ok! Ive learnt my lessons from past experiance and I am not willing to risk falling into the same type of person i used to be!

now, point 5 is that the kitchen at work will officially be opening on the 8th December! I cant wait! Lance has got a good menu put together, and it all seems to be improving at the pub! new coffee machine is in, prices going down over the next few days, we finally have our master key, heaters in the terrace, and the terrace has been cleaned and will be painted next monday. Awnings are going up at some point but not sure when. ummm... COCKTAILS! yes thats right, i will finally be aloud to make cocktails at the pub, just need to price them up and get the stuff for it all! Will also need some glasses, but can use the highballs for now! Also selling sourz so good for the students!

Thats everything covered, point wise, from the last post. I really should get some sleep, wanna get up in the morning to tidy my bedroom, for georgie, and I need to get the christmas decorations down etc. I was going to write about uni, but its complicated, and will do it all in another post, maybe after i sort out what im actually going to do.

Gonna go chill and think of my beautiful, intelligent, sexy girlfriend now :p

Georgie, I LOVE YOU xxx

Peace