where is everyone?

OK now! My blog has been up and running since 11th June, thats 13 days, and I havent had a single comment! Im gonna get a hit counter just to see whos looking at it! maybe no one! but IM actively advertising it! and theres links on my website which people keep looking at.... Maybe they are laughing to much to comment, or i might just be boring! or using large words that they dont understand! Or maybe its the simple fact that no one cares about me? well the feelings mutual!

Tuesday Im meant to be going down to see lottie, not so sure now... same with going to tylah's ! I just dont know what Im doing at the moment! My life is a total mess and ummmmm..... yeah.....

Anyway... the boys, Lewis, Zack, Dale and Tylah came in today... while I was at work... Their all annoying! Everyone is annoying tho at the moment! I just wanna be left alone to die! Dont want to sound emo or anything, but my life really is that shit at the moment! And if anyone actually read this blog they would understand that...

My nan keeps moaning about me, and she hasnt got a fucking clue about what Im going through at the moment! I just cant deal with my life at the moment! One of my friends actually asked me to go to see a physcologist! and try to sort out all my problems! Ummm I think the answer to that was a big fat NO!

Well my life still goes on... Even if I dont want it to, but Im not about to do anything stupid, I tried it once, Im not about to do it again, cos no matter how much I wanted my life to end back in the days, theres always the good things that Ive done that I wouldnt of missed for the world! Yeah they are far and few between, but they still happened to me! I just wonder what would of happened if I never met Alison, or we never split up and I tried to kill myself, If none of that ever happened? would my life of turned out differently? would some cosmic fate sorted my life out so it was all rosey and perky?

Hang on... I can be rosey and perky, Im just not about to go down the drugs road again! anyway... thats a different story! and one Im not about to tell anyone! It involves me, drugs, and copous amounts of alcohol! oh god, bring back the good ole days!