So Much Bleh!

Well... Things aren't too bad in the world of James. Its not that I'm not complaining about anything, just that I really can't be bothered with the complaining. My depression has gotten to the point that I really just don't care about anything anymore :/ Tommy is still getting on my nerves, and its getting to the point where I really want him out now, but as of last weekend I now have Demi living here as well. But with Demi comes Aaron... after Demi and Pawl fell out over something or other, Demi came to Oxford for a break, met up with Aaron, and yeah.... Now Demi has dumped Pawl, is dating Aaron, and is homeless, with all her stuff still with Pawl back in Bournemouth, give or take 2 changes of clothes, a bag, and toothbrush.

I'm sure you can now see the problems of having Demi and Aaron in my living room, wanting to be all lovey dovey etc, while Tommy is in there, especially given that Maxine is in Japan for two weeks, and Tommy has gone all emo about it. Tomorrow, or rather, this morning is Monday and I'm treating it as the start of a new week, and a new house. Im sitting them all down for some ground rules, and giving them expiry times on staying here! Don't get me wrong, Im loving the company and in some aspects its really helping my depression, but with Demi not being able to help with living costs, and Tommy being his messy, un-house-trained self, all of it is really starting to annoy me and i need my own space back!

As for other news, I finally had my tribunal, after waiting two years, almost to the day. And I actually won my case, so I will be expecting some money soon. I'm not sure how much, and Ive worked it out to be about £2500 but this is the DWP and we all know how they like to fuck people over, so if I get that amount, I will be very happy, but Im not holding my breath! At least I will be getting something. Plan on finally getting my carpet, now the rest of the house is decorated (just need to paint the hallway ceiling), and also plan on treating myself to a nice big 40 inch TV for my bedroom! Using some of my money when i get paid next week to get my cooker installed... finally! Cant wait to be able to cook actual meals again! If I get what Im expecting, Im also paying for Krissy to come down for a few weeks! Its been about a year since Ive seen her and lil one, and I cant wait to see them again. Shes moving back to Oxford soon, and depending on how things go while shes down here, she may move in, if the others are out by then, and yeah.... James with girlfriend? well, lets just see how it all goes!

Speaking of girls, I really dont know whats going on between me and Lucy. Im giving up on the whole idea, as much as I like her, Im fed up with the mind games, and trying to work out what to do. Anyway, if things work out ok between me and Krissy, that problem will solve itself!

Stil not sleeping properly at night, hence the post at 6am in the morning, after only 2 hours of sleep. I really need to get back into a routine of taking my meds when Im meant to! Im also meant to be going into hospital on Wednesday to have my 3 wisdom teeth pulled, but I will be ringing up later to change the dates as I have no way of getting there by 9:30am, and with everything going on atm, Im not up to having all the extra stress. Anyway, time I logged off and sorted a few things out!

Peace x