sooo....

Not really much to blog about at the moment. My operation is on 5th March with my pre-op being this Tuesday! On Wednesday Im going to an appointment for a medical review for my Employment Support Allowance... wonder what they will say. As long as they dont fuck it up and say Im fit for work like they did last time!

Im off to Gemma's tomorrow for a flat warming party! It will be good to go back there and see Gemma and Mikey, but what Im really looking forward to is seeing Keri! Ok yeah, you could say I got it bad... you can call it infatuation, a crush, or whatever... I dont care, I like her, and I hope that she likes me in the same way! Yeah she lives in Witney, but it would work. I will hopefully get the balls to ask her out over the next few days. But knowing me, I'll go all shy and ummm... not man the fuck up like I should do. On that note, I've aske Gemma to find out for me! hehehe...

Nothing else really going on at the moments, doctors and hospital appointments galore over the next few months, and Im slightly worried about what will happen come op day. Im not letting it show and its kinda getting me down slightly, but Im managing! Docs put me one another anti-depressant and they seem to be working. Thats 2 types of anti-depressant Im on at the moment now. Along with all the other pills. Other pills... lol Im not actually taking my pain killers, despite my doc saying I should, just because even when I do take them, they dont seem to actually do anything. Saying that, Its been over two years now of taking a cocktail of the strongest pain killers short of morpheine. So maybe Ive become immune to them? If, after the op, and they cant "fix" me, Im asking to be put onto morpheine, and seeing what I can do about getting disability living allowance, or some extra benefits that will help in the financial situation. Only time will tell, and will have to wait till after the op to see what I do. There is always my plan of suing the NHS for neglect, but again, Im waiting til post op to follow that up!

Im off to bed, to read my book, and try to get to bed at a reasonable time, instead of the 6am that Ive been falling to sleep recently!

Peace xxx