A clinical psychologist

Yes, ok, My usual appologies for not writing in months are needed. A few things have happened since my last post. I'll start with all the medical shit and the reason for the title...

Firstly, I have finally seen the PAin management team... Nothing much to really mention, one or two possible changes in the future in regards to my meds, but Ive been told my GP has done an amazing job, and they are happy with it. A follow up appointment has been made for 6 months time. They also referred me to a pain therapy department, which was interesting. Im not sure how to take it at the  moment, theres talk about group meetings etc, which I wont do. What they have gotten me to do is see a clinical psychologist, which for me.... well... I went in with the plan of not talking about anything, besides the medical side of things, but I dont know what happened... I actually told the doc everything... well, at least the majority of things anyway. From robin, the alcohol and abuse, laura's miscarrage, me and Char, the cancer scare, how much im really actually depressed, and miss work etc. I even mentioned the suicide attempt, and the suicidal thoughts etc. Theres still a lot i didnt mention, but an appointment can only last so long. We did spend quite a bit of time talking about my anxiety and my panic attacks, which helped, and the whole pain side of things of course. Im not sure what will come of all this, I was given info on some other help I could get etc, and I think a follow up meeting with the pain therapy team will be made to discuss other plans etc. The pain isnt getting any better, but now that Ive exhausted all medical avenues, maybe some psych help to help me deal with the pain might actually help. Who knows :/

As for benefits, my tribunal for DLA was meant to be heard on 2nd November but was adjourned due to it being the same judge person as my last tribunal and there could be a conflict of opinion. I was told I would have a new tribunal in 3 to 4 weeks. That was 5 weeks ago and I still havent had it. Can you expect anything else from the job centre? As for fighting the tribunal decision for my ESA, Im leaving that in the hands of the welfare rights / citizens advice people. Would be nice If I won that as well. For now I'd just be happy with DLA being sorted before Christmas, as I need the money from backpay for presents!Bleh... they stress me out so damn much!

Besides all the medical and job centre crazy shit, my lifes been very boring. No new people in my life, the usual ones Im not even sure are there any more. I speak and see demi less and less, the one or two people I do fancy dont seem interested, or in the case of one of them, shows interest, then doesnt talk to me for weeks on end :/ Im pretty much fed up with everything at the moment. Im finding myself sleeping so much at the moment, and besides sleeping or catching up on films and tv, all I tend to do is either play wow or stare at my wall on facebook :/

Only really good news I have at the moment is that Megan has finally put music to one of my songs I wrote for her. Hopefully she will be performing it on the 16th at a gig! Cant wait, it should be so awesome! Now, Im gonna go back to staring blankly at facebook!

Peace x

And todays tunage is...... Halestorm - I miss the misery