So yeah, I havent been good recently. Going through stages of being totally numb, to totally emo depressed to being ok-ish. So whats happened in the last 6 weeks since my last post? Well, me and megan make a giant 2 foot cake for Lucy's 19th Birthday, spent 2 days at Megan's which was good fun! Think thats the only time, bar Demi's 21st, that Ive been out this year, properly anyway. My depressions gotten to the stage whereby I cant even face going out and seeing my friends any more :s I also keep going through stages of "I miss Char" and such... I know, I broke up with her thinking that I'd get better, which hasn't happened, but at least Im not hurting her anymore, and despite what she says, she means too much to me to put her through all the stuff I was going through.
As of the 28th Feb I've been back at work. It's helped me a little bit, but Im only doing 2 or 3 hours monday and friday mornings. Will hopefully be doing more hours soon. Once I've retrained and what not. Its nice to get out of the house, and the money will help alot!
Think I'm gonna try and get out this weekend and see some people I havent seen in forever! Krissy has moved back to oxford, and met up with her last friday, was good to see her again, and had a great time! But I really wanna meet up with everyone else, and as much as I know its just my depression thats stopping me from going out, that fear is still pretty real. I know I shouldnt let it effect me, but it does :(
Theres not much else happening at the moment. I've got a million and one thoughts running through my head, but trying to put them together and voice them is something else completely.
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