DRAMA!

Ok, so after the whole breaking up with Hayley, and getting back with Lauren... her saying she never wanted to leave me ever again... that was bollocks! Few days before Valentines Day, after i had spent £50 on her, she dumps me saying things arnt the same. Of course their not the same, she has a job, im ill, shes in a new house, she has new friends... Everything changes, you have to get used to that. Anyway, I was planning on getting back with Elly, we had some fun online, if you know what i mean... Planned on meeting in town last Saturday then we were gonna go back to mine. I was gonna ask her back out, and everything was going to be back to normal. I really do, and still... love her with all my heart. Yes, i moved on and had other girlfriends when we broke up last time, but nothing compares to her. She was like my soul partner. Anyway, got to town, and she was there, went to say hello and hugged, I then went to say hello to the others, I turn back to go see elly, and guess who shows up? Her ex, Trendell. Next thing I know, they are kissing and walking off together... Totally destroyed me. I sat around for a minute, to calm myself and went straight home. Ended up crying myself to sleep that night.

In other news, Demi got with Jam Jam, which is confusing, cos shes used the same excuse on me as she has on him in the past, which is "i see you more as a brother". So why? ut it looks like shes single again :s hmm... maybe I will have a chance? Seeing her tomorrow as its her 20th Birthday and a group of us are going to the Gloc. And it should be fun, I need cheering up anyway. Going to try and see Lauren tomorrow to get back my xbox controller and my injection, then i need to go to Hayley's to pick up my things and return hers.

All in all, i feel like shit, but im coping. I just dont like being single :s That may change, but i doubt it at the moment. At least I have my download ticket! hehe... And I get paid tomorrow!!!

Peace x