anyone want a barman?

Work have decided to opt for a no smoking policy... me? no smoking? mwahahahahaha LIKE FUCK! can any of you see me going 5 hours without a cigarette? I get bad after 3 hours, let alone any longer! Today was terrible! 3 1/2 hours either side of my break today, and by 5:30 (half an hour before i finish) i was literally in a state! Talking to myself, pains in my stomach which i swear are withdrawal symptoms, and snapping at everyone. Especially Martina, who's being a bitch at the moment. Shes on her power trip cos she thinks shes in charge because Nathan is managing the pub in Banbury, and ok, yeah shes a supervisor, but it doesn't mean she can be the all controlling bitch she is. Even if shes rota'ed herself to do 5 AFD's in a row to cover Nathan, and she hasn't had that much sleep. Ive said i don't mind doing some, and I am signed off to do management shifts there. But no, she wont have it, she has to be the all-powerful one. Its getting so bad that we have run out of stock because she hasn't ordered it, she told me we ran out of ketchup, and yet I find a box in the cupboard, Shes moaning left right and centre because she didn't get her one hour break this morning, yet when i told her i didn't get mine last week, she told me its tough and all part of being a manager. Well screw her! I even had Cassie ask me when Nathans going to be back to managing the pub because theres a few members of staff getting pissed off with her. Well... Rant over.

Been with Lauren over 6 weeks now, and its great! I love her to bits, even if she thinks i don't, and she believes that I will leave her. Well I'm not going to. She makes me so god damn happy. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with her. I'm planning on going upto Blackpool with her during half term, to see the lights, and to visit Demi, as shes moved up that way with her new boyfriend AJ.

There isn't really much more to talk about! I'm enjoying my new 26 inch High Def Flat Screen TV come computer monitor! Great for my Xbox and watching films on!

More later, as it happens!

Peace x

And todays tunage is...... earshot - Someone