fuck life...single again..

Yesterday had the perfect start to a day, I didnt have work til 5pm, I woke up early, and I actually felt happy with myself, which was all down to going out with Amber, she really made me feel whole, and for the first time in ages I felt like my broken shattered remnants of a heart were starting to mend. Went into town as usual, met everyone, and was sat on bonn square, amber sat in front of me, cuddling and it was bliss. But this is where it all goes tits up.

My brother, lewis came and dragged amber away to talk to her, fine i thought, then he came and dragged tasha, Ambers best mate, away... five minutes later lewis comes running over and tries gripping me up, pulling me up from my seat and starts shouting about how i should stop dating younger girls and start going out with people my own age. Im sorry... whos the dickhead whos gotten a 15 year old pregnant? him and cat arnt exactly the same age (5 years difference) and at least my girlfriends are all legal! Hypocrite or what! Then he starts shouting about how i should be paying rent? Im sorry... thats none of his business and I am paying rent! thank you very much! and heres the best part.... He said i should sort my life out? my life? Im the one who actually finished school and went to university (even if i did drop out) and I have a job, and im not living in my mates spare room, rent free, bumming off the government and friends! I think the best part was when he put his hand around my neck... come on you fucking reject... it didnt even hurt... I reciprocated and he let go... lmfao! He's been starting fights with me since i can remember, and he's never won, what makes him think he would win this one? The only down side to this was he didnt swing for me, cos if he did, it would of given me reason to hit back! I know hes a dick head without a life, but im not gonna hit him first, he is my brother.

Anyway, after all this i walked away, hyped up and contemplating just beating the shit out of him, and Woodzy comes up and says "you got what you deserved" or something along those lines and then they both run away... They are just both jealous and over protective of Amber... Well screw them. BUt after all this, Amber has now dumped me, because of what lewis has said to her, and she wont tell me what he said. Lewis doesnt know anything about me, and I havent lived with him for the past 10 years. so whatever he's said was proberly lies just to get her to break up with me. Now this is where Im really going to kill him! My blood is still boiling, and all night yesterday I was that worked up i couldnt even eat! I will let you know when his funeral is...

more later

Peace xxx

And todays tunage is...... Motley Crue - Home sweet home