its been a really fucked up few weeks for me. its driving me insane trying to even think things through. Whats even worse is, my friends are starting to notice my "depression" and they arnt buying the whole "i just feel ill" story, but at least that story is still pulling some credit at work. right, where to start.
The main thing pissing me off is Ali. Yes, I am still deeply in love with her, but after all this time of her saying we shouldnt be close together etc, cos she does have a boyfriend, shes then flirting with other guys, nick for one, and nick told her that he fancied her, but nick is a dickhead and would fancy any female with a pulse. Now tonight at Beths birthday gathering, Ali was really close with big Dom, and it kinda freaks me out and pisses me off, when she doesnt mind being so close, and obviously flirting with another guy, especially when she knows how i feel about her, and for her to do it infront of me. Its driving me insane. Especially since Dom is meant to be married :S its all fucked up!
On other news, the other girl i really like, kayleigh, is really upset at the moment over the whole tom thing, and she punched him tonight. well, he deserved a punch, me and kayleigh overheard him saying to cat that he has never been in love. I really do love her, but i think shes passing off my flirting as my usual thing, when its not. I really do love her and care for her. I just hope shes ok, and gets over this without any harm. I know how bad it is as Ive been there. Love you Kayleigh!
Last week I went to that gig with Ali, and saw Tequila Rose play. For their very first gig they were very good. I recorded a few of their songs and put them on my youtube page, which has now also been put onto their own myspace page, with credits to me, which is cool! They are acually a really good band!
Also going to the 36 Crazyfists gig on friday. Meant to be going with Ali as I brought her a ticket, and Kayleigh is going, but im in two minds in giving ali her ticket, with the way im feeling at the moment.
in other, happier, non emo news, ive finally cleared my debt with the debt collectors! it feels good to know that the money i make is now mine! Also brought my download ticket! will be soooo fucking amazing! cant wait for it!
Im gonna go bed now! Peace xxx
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