The moment has gone

With blood shot eyes, I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me makes things better?

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, too guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me makes it better?

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, too guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come home

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time

Let's go!

Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me makes it better?

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, too guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come

Back!

Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscience calls, too guilty to come home

Yeah... been two months, and what a damn fucked up two months its been! I think the lyrics above represent my current state of mind.. need i say more? Robin (thats my dad) has "quit" drinking yet again, and as usual the family seem to think he means it... we will see! apart from that, Im really feeling down with not being near Laura, its kinda upsetting, and its making me think about things like why i'm with her, what happened in previous relationships to to make me like this, and generally about how much I fucking love her! I also didnt work last weekend cos of Laura's birthday, she came up for five whole days, we chilled out, went ice skating, went out drinking etc... all good! I had an exam last Saturday, then me and the guys went to the Red Lion, which used to be the Goose, in town. Had a few pints, got myself a tiny bit tipsy, went onto coke two hours before i was meant to start work, just to sober myself up. Went into work at 2:30pm, to start at 3:30pm, and Rahim (the general manager) knew i had been drinking, we had a big fight about how i was there to get something to eat before i started, sober up type of thing, he told me to go home and come back sober, i told him to fuck off and walked out. I wasn't in the mood, I would of been fine to work! anyway...

Met Nat in town that day, chilled with the guys down by the river in Christ Church, all good fun!!!!

Really need to sort out whats going on with uni! gonna go in on Monday, and try to speak to someone! I know I've failed! I've hopefully passed three modules out of the eight, and we need to pass six to pass the year. I'm hoping they let me resit over summer or next year.

I went into work today and spoke to Rahim, we both said sorry... blah blah blah... hugged... I almost broke down, actually talked to someone about all my problems... which felt good, even if it was really hard to do! Just need to find something constructive to sort my problems out with...

Got a new craving for 30 seconds to mars, and Bullet for my valentine! Especially "todays tunage" lyrics of which are the ones up there^^

Anyways.... I'm gonna go chill out now! Peace!


And todays tunage is...... Bullet for my Valentine - Tears don't fall