Alot of stuff happening!

At the moment Im kinda pissed off, annoyed, depressed but also happy. The past two weeks have been half term which means alot of free time to catch up with college work and with my mates! Lottie has been up here with her friend, Laura. Had alot of fun, went swimming etc. Generally chilled out stuff. Ive fallen in love with Laura and as of Monday 9th April we have been dating. shes a great girl and I'm really in love. I know, Ive been single for almost five years now, and I didnt fall for the person I loved, but its all ok! Lottie is now with Alan, and Im now with Laura. Laura actually sent a text to her current boyfriend, whos in the states on hols and dumped him so she could go out with me. so Ive spent most of this week at Jo's as thats where Laura is staying. They have both gone back home now so thats made me a lil sad, but they are both back next weekend as its Lottie's 18th on the 21st so there will be a big party. Laura's 19th is on the 1st of May as well, so its going to be a joint birthday party.

Im mainly depressed cos Im fed up with life, my nans accused me of stealing money, yet again. and is in a really big mood with me. Im fed up with it all, I think Ive also upset Laura, according to Lottie she was kinda pissed off cos she wanted some alone time, and Ive been there constantly. But of course, no one said anything to me. All she needed to do was ask and i would of spent the day at home or something.

With my nans funeral, Lottie being here, me going out with Laura and my nan pestering me I've been in a really bad mood! havent spoken to any of my other friends and I havent done a single peice of course work and Im falling behind! Im really thinking about droping the course, moving out, going somewhere and moving away from it all!

either that or just ending this whole pile of shit right now! Im so close to killing myself it scares me! dont want to sound like an emo or anything, but thats how i feel! FUCKING HELL!

And todays tunage is...... Three Days Grace - Pain