2 kisses in one day?

So she kissed me once... but then she kissed me again! i was like OMG! yeah yeah I know! Not on the lips, on the forehead this time! but twice in one day? she NEVER EVER fucking kisses me! I was like OMFG! I think something is up
shes got a boyfriend in Windsor, but i dont know! My life is totally fucked up! I really do love her! More than I even loved Alison! And everyone who knows me knows how much i loved Ali! I just cant stop thinking about Lottie! Shes back up here for christmas! But im working throughout! So I dont know if i will see her! I really want to ask her out, but I know how she feels about long distance relations! But shes hiding her emotions about me! I mean we've spoken about it! and shes said she loves me! But whys she hiding it? I mean I kinda understand it infront of her mom and lew, with the roumors that go around etc! But still...

Im just really depressed and fed up with work and college and life in general! Break up for christmas on the 14th and got a test for info systems tomorrow! But ive caught up with my assignments! just about! Work isnt that bad, I just cant deal with it all! Want to be left alone!

FUCK LIFE!

Shes got a Damn Boyfriend

Lottie got into Oxford today! Its great to see her again! Been thinking about her alot! She came in to work to see me and it was great! She waited for a whole hour til I finished work and i walked her to the bus stop! We hugged etc as usual! But she told me shes got a boyfriend! someone hrom the resturant across the road from where she works. Its not fair! But worst part is, before she gets on the bus she kisses me! Ok Ok, it was only on the cheek but shes never done that before. But shes got a damn boyfriend! She knows how I feel about her, and even though I know we cant be together at the moment, I just get jealous when I know theres someone else there where I want to be!

I just love her too much and want to be with her so badly. Her kissing me is weird?!?!?!?!?! She has never ever never done that before. I know it was just on the cheek, but still. I love her! I LOVE HER! i love her! I LOVE HER!

Anyway... Work is going ok! been there two or three weeks now! Been put in charge of the furniture department and from what IVe been told Im kinda being promoted to second in charge of warehouse. That wont be for another month or two tho! College is going ok as well! Vic has been ill all week so havent had many classes! But its given me time to catch up with all my assignments!

Getting paid from work next friday! Hopefully its around £400 and IM buying myself a decent computer! Not going OTT with it, just something more powerful than what Ive got! getting it from work, so might cut a deal or something as well! (I wish)!

Anyway! gotta go!

And todays tunage is...... PPK - Ressurection