mixed emotions?

So Im at Jo's today, and Jo asked me if I could watch the kids while she went to her buddist meeting, which was fine with me, but hannah and Jennifer arrived and Jen came up to me and told me

"Your arrogant, I dont like you, but i'll put up with you because you've been invited to stay"

Im like so? Me? arrogant? ok then... I'm arrogant? I'm anything but arrogant!

arrogant

adjective

unpleasantly proud and behaving as if you are more important than, or know more than, other people:
- I found him arrogant and rude.

arrogantly

adverb

- The authorities had behaved arrogantly, she said.

arrogance

noun {U}

- He has a self-confidence that is sometimes seen as arrogance.

I, in no way, act as though Im more important than anyone else! god...
I dont care... i left as soon as i could!
If she wants to think that, its her opinion...
Words like that go in one ear and out the other....

On a lighter side... cant wait for college! Induction on the 8th and start on the 29th! god I want to start now! Also going to alton towers on the 7th with Gemma and leah... and hopefully Charlotte will be coming! but she starts college on the 5th.. .so im not sure!

Everytime I speak to lottie she keeps saying i love you and miss you... and I do love her... but from the way shes saying it... its like... ummm... what do i do? does she love me as a frien? or love me as something more? I know i love her, but im confused, because the subject has come up a few times, and every time we speak about it, we have always said that nothing will happen because our friendship is worth too much.

And todays tunage is...... pink - U+UR hand

Change around

So my life is changing... Im not working yet, and no, im still single, but Ive applied for this really great job. Its for an IT coordinator at a family centre teaching adults on how to use a computer. Its only basic skills and i could do it with my eyes closed. It also pays £2k which is really good if i get the job i will be able to pay off my debts withing a few weeks!

Ive also got my welcome pack from college! I have my induction on the 8th September. And start college on the 29th! Cant wait, and if i get the job as well it will be cool!

And todays tunage is...... Kid Rock - Picture

Stressful life!

Ok, So im stressed, Im usually stressed, but this is worse! Usually when im stressed I work better, and can control it, usually with cigarettes! But Im starting to smoke alot more now, and I dont have a job so I cant put my energy into work, Im soo stressed that I dont have the energy to work at home! My life is going down hill, and when i already thought it had hit rock bottom!

Went to Woburn Safari Park today with Gemma & Leah! It was great fun, and I was glad to get out of the house for a while! I needed a break from sitting on my arse all day! lol! Havent seen Gemma in a while either! When we got back to Gemma's she was speaking to Natalie, who I really fancy, and she was asking her what i thought of her etc, and it was basically a no go area! so thats out of the question! But Im not really bothered!

Every Girl I fall in love with is either taken, married, lives too far away, or in the rare cases that they are single, they dont want to know me! Its just my luck! When all I want is a relationship! Girls put that male stereotype on every guy they meet! and dont deny it! its the "All i want is sex", "I just want you for your body" or the "Im gonna use you" or "you can do all my housework" Its those types of stereotypes that are put onto guys, and ok, I must admit, its true for the 95% of guys out there! They are mostly looking for one night stands, or someone to get laid with! But Im different and why cant they bloody well see that?

I want a long lasting relationship! I want someone for who they are, not for how slim they are. I go for personality etc, I dont care if shes a size 18, as long as she makes me happy! I mean, ok, Yes looks do play a role in it, but Im not fussed! Admittedly, If the gal has looks, it looks better to your friends, while your out etc!

Im not asking a gal to stay at home all day, washing cooking and cleaning, While im down the pub with the guys! I like cleaning and cooking! It doesnt bother me! I'd gladly stay at home, look after the kids while my wife is out working, if thats what she wanted! But the gals dont see that side of me, and by the time they notice that side, their with someone or are maried!

Damn this is a long rant!

Fuck nows why Im even doing this any more!

I think only 1 or 2 people have ever read any of it!


Oh well, shit happens, and life goes on!


And todays tunage is...... Linkin park - Numb