Its offical

Yup! Its offical! My life is shit! Havent heard anything from work yet... nothing about redundancy pay, which i dont think I'll get anyway! and nothing about the pay they owe me! Havent heard back from the person Jo passed my email to either...

Also got the debt collecters on me asking me to pay off the £2k i owe them... which i cant do seeming as im not working! Gonna go to the job centre tomorrow and see about signing on!at least that will give me a lil money! Also gonna go job hunting! need to print of some copies of my CV as well!

So thats my life sorted out for the next year! lmao! no job, no money, no life, no girlfriend! do I really need to continue!

Im actually going to Gemmas hen party! yup! thats right! me in a room full of woman! hehe! That might be some fun! especially if they are single! ashame the one girl I love is the one getting married! At least shes happy! and Carl seems like a nice guy! So Im happy for her! Im also going to the wedding! I've promised Gem I wont do anything stupid! I can picture it now! with the preist asking "does anyone object?" and I shout out "I do"

That wont happen! I wouldnt do that, they are happy together and thats a good thing! I wouldnt destroy that for the world! But it seems everyone I have ever fallen in love with is either unavailable, with someone, lives too far away, or is otherwise engaged with someone else! At least I got my Monique! but shes away for two weeks! I miss talking to her! shes great and the feelings I have for her! Man! I've never, ever felt that way for anyone, ever! I didnt even feel this strongly for Alison and you all know how i was like with her!

And todays tunage is...... Kanye West Ft. Jamie Foxx - extravaganza